double standards.
i was just thinking it thru abt this.
and realising how everyone practices double standards nowadays.
i look at my home...
( disclaimer: this is not to target anyone, but to state my points)
my poor friend _______ accidentally lost smthg of my dad's, 1k plus gone.
i dont blame ______ its an accident, but then my dad just say nvm its ok.
(im cool with that)
then, he had to tell me to pay for my trip to Penang and not to bring hp cos itd cost money to use it in M'sia.
and my eyes just pricked at the unfairness of it all.
the trip cost only abt 300 bucks, and 5 days will not increase my fone bills by more than 10 bucks.
and here he is asking me to pay for it myself.
and i thought that its really incredulous?
the diff in treatment of your own family members vs outsiders.
cant you apply your supposed generosity at home?
so much for " charity beginning at home".
and i just thought, how we all have double standards?
you dont want someone to treat you this way,
yet you gladly administer it on others like they dont matter.
that hurts y'know. on hindsight.
disintegration of the basic unit of society.
you can almost see it moving in the apathetic direction,
one day people might just stop having contact with each other.
its so hard now, to find someone genuine to talk to.
someone who does not scheme with every word he/she says to you
who does not plot against you behind your back.
Eric is right abt that ugly world out there.
i want nothing to do with it, at all.
if only " no man's an island" is a fallacy.
i dont even know who i can trust, or talk to, nowadays.
im sure levina wont let me down.
others i dunno.
then there's some choir and gep frens...
ella was telling me how humans is like gep also.
which made me wonder
what if i had gone thru with that transfer application form?
gone into humans... arts...
would i have been happier? more at ease?
i know, and i alone know, why i din go thru with it.
grass is greener on the other side, it seems.
but at least i can maintain that illusion
to not be disappointed seeing it all yellow and withered with my own eyes.
to conclude that its all the same after all.
i was just thinking it thru abt this.
and realising how everyone practices double standards nowadays.
i look at my home...
( disclaimer: this is not to target anyone, but to state my points)
my poor friend _______ accidentally lost smthg of my dad's, 1k plus gone.
i dont blame ______ its an accident, but then my dad just say nvm its ok.
(im cool with that)
then, he had to tell me to pay for my trip to Penang and not to bring hp cos itd cost money to use it in M'sia.
and my eyes just pricked at the unfairness of it all.
the trip cost only abt 300 bucks, and 5 days will not increase my fone bills by more than 10 bucks.
and here he is asking me to pay for it myself.
and i thought that its really incredulous?
the diff in treatment of your own family members vs outsiders.
cant you apply your supposed generosity at home?
so much for " charity beginning at home".
and i just thought, how we all have double standards?
you dont want someone to treat you this way,
yet you gladly administer it on others like they dont matter.
that hurts y'know. on hindsight.
disintegration of the basic unit of society.
you can almost see it moving in the apathetic direction,
one day people might just stop having contact with each other.
its so hard now, to find someone genuine to talk to.
someone who does not scheme with every word he/she says to you
who does not plot against you behind your back.
Eric is right abt that ugly world out there.
i want nothing to do with it, at all.
if only " no man's an island" is a fallacy.
i dont even know who i can trust, or talk to, nowadays.
im sure levina wont let me down.
others i dunno.
then there's some choir and gep frens...
ella was telling me how humans is like gep also.
which made me wonder
what if i had gone thru with that transfer application form?
gone into humans... arts...
would i have been happier? more at ease?
i know, and i alone know, why i din go thru with it.
grass is greener on the other side, it seems.
but at least i can maintain that illusion
to not be disappointed seeing it all yellow and withered with my own eyes.
to conclude that its all the same after all.
1 Comments:
At 9:36 PM,
Terence said…
hey shaoning..you know..sometimes reason isn't going to change things..its just the way things are..you get your way sometimes..and in other times you don't..look on the bright side..let go..the world is like that..but you can't hate the world..you don't have to play by its rules..be yourself..alright..that was in response to your previous post..as for this one..i have a suggestion..if getting your father to pay for the entire trip is not possible..then ask that he pay for half..double standards it is..maybe he's not in the right frame of mind? try talking to him again later? in any case..cheer up! tennis still on this fri? hah..take care..cya in sch..
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